A Mother Shares What She Learned from Her Son’s First Brush with Racism


A few weeks ago, my friend and colleague Helen Lee wrote a note on Facebook about her son experiencing derogatory comments related to his race for the first time. I reached out to ask her to reflect upon what God had taught her during that experience for the Small Talk blog series here. Helen brings her usual wisdom and insight to her post today, the fourth in a series that began with Sara Hagerty’s children’s questions about adoption, and continued with Kateyln Beaty’s reflection upon becoming a godparent. Last week, Megan Hill shared thoughts on how to explain adultery to a Sunday school class.

As the mom of a tween-aged son, I can never predict what words are going to come out of his mouth next. Even so, I was taken aback when we were having our routine pre-bedtime conversation and he made this unexpected statement: “Mom, I need to tell you something. Someone made a racist comment at me today.”

Racist. It was the first time I’d ever heard him or any of my three boys utter the word. Although our family had often discussed issues of race and culture in our house, including our own Korean ethnic heritage, we had never done so as a result of any direct race-related barbs. But now my son explained that one of his fellow Little League teammates had used the phrase “ching chong chang” as a joke. Then, after my son tried to explain the inappropriateness of the phrase, the teammate responded by ramping up his use of the phrase, then recruiting another teammate to join in and follow suit.

My son concluded with words that pierced me through: “Sometimes I wish I weren’t Asian. I wish I were more American.”

This from the boy who had been born in the heartland of the U.S., in a tiny Iowan farm town, surrounded by cornfields, cow herds, and the descendants of Dutch immigrants. I had wanted to believe that it didn’t matter if our ancestors came from Korea rather than the Netherlands, that we were all united as Americans together. But my family was the only one to cause heads to turn whenever we walked down the street or through the grocery store aisles. You don’t belong here, the curious stares implied. Where did you come from?

Hearing my son express doubt in his own Americanness brought me right back to the moment more than 30 years ago when I experienced the same feeling of being out of place in my own country. I was similarly tween-aged, sitting in a class of fellow 6th graders, and each of us was filling out a form. My teacher decided to use the opportunity as an odd teaching moment.

“Now, everyone will check the box on this form that says ‘Caucasian’, except for you, Helen. You check that box that says, ‘Asian’.” Before that moment, it hadn’t occurred to me that I was Asian, even though I knew it to be true. But my teacher’s words tore through my class’ collective, colorblind veil. I now recognized that innocence and ignorance had shielded me from seeing that I was the only person of color in the class, the oddball who did not belong. It took decades for me to undo the journey of shame and ethnic identity confusion that began in that grade-school classroom.

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SOURCE: Christianity Today
Amy Julia Becker

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