A survivor of the Orlando Pulse nightclub mass shooting is recounting the trauma of that night and how God used it to bring about his repentance and why he now says he is no longer gay.
In an interview last week with the Billy Graham Evangelistic Association on their “GPS: God. People. Stories” broadcast, Luis Javier Ruiz spoke of his journey out of the homosexual life, how the Holy Spirit continues to transform him, and how he is now ministering to people.
Now in his 30s, Ruiz explained that although he grew up in the church it was during a time when many congregations did not have the tools with which to engage this issue, and what he learned was how to keep secrets. All the while, he was struggling with his sexuality, having experienced same-sex attraction since his childhood. He finally came out as a homosexual to his family toward the end of his high school years.
On his mom’s birthday, they were listening to a radio program where someone was railing against homosexuals in an abusive manner complete with charges of “they’re going to hell” and ‘they’re an abomination.”
“It was bad,” Ruiz recalled the experience, “and we got into an argument about it … and I just ended it with ‘Mom, you know what? Your son is gay. How about that?”
His parents did not take the news well and his relationship with them soured; they often wondered what they had done wrong as parents and began to question their ministry in the church.
After high school, Ruiz joined the armed forces and served for 15 years. He kept his sexuality a secret from the military.
“Basically they saw this one guy in the army, and at night I would go out to the gay clubs and go hang out and party and live my life the best way I knew how without God,” Ruiz said.
When he completed his active duty, he ended up moving to Florida and started leading a double life of sorts. He got involved with a Bible-believing church and even did an internship there. At the same time, he was also a part of the Orlando LGBT community. He went to a friend’s house to celebrate his birthday on June 11, 2016, and he and some of his friends went to the Pulse nightclub later that night. Early in the morning on June 12 he was hanging out at bar when he began hearing what he thought were fireworks.
But those sounds were really gunshots.
“I hear this guy, yelling ‘Run for your life! Run for your life, get out of the club!'” he said.
Yet Omar Mateen, the shooter, continued rampaging and Ruiz got stuck amid the chaos. A friend grabbed him and pushed him out and he started running toward the door amid the screams and bodies dropping all around him.
Mateen murdered a total of 49 people that night and was subsequently killed in a gunfight with police.
“While this is all going on, I’m thinking ‘I’m about to die, I’m about to go to Hell. Like, why did I even come [to Pulse],'” Ruiz said of that night.
He managed to get out of the club but there was a fence too high to climb over. He headed toward a gate and managed to kick it open. A mad rush toward this new exit ensued and Ruiz was trampled underfoot and sustained several injuries. He was in such pain he went to the hospital. From there he watched the media coverage of everything that transpired and saw the names of his friends who were murdered.
“I was sick, depressed and hurting for a long time,” he recounted.
He received even worse news days later upon getting an email telling him that many of the people who died that night were HIV-positive and he was urged to get tested. He did so and found out that he, too, was HIV-positive. Ruiz sank deeper into depression, thought he was going to die, and became furiously angry.
But God met him in the midst of it, he said.
“It’s either you submit and surrender yourself to Me or it’s just going to get worse after this,” Ruiz recalled the Holy Spirit speaking to him.
“We have a real enemy,” he said, “who doesn’t want us to get free from anything.”
While in bed one day shortly after this, through tears, he cried out to God, asking Him transform his life with this power that he had heard about in church and read about in the Bible for so many years. He decided to surrender everything, including his sexuality.
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Source: Christian Post