We know Wayne Brady as a multi-talented, happy-go-lucky guy, but his struggle with severe depression resulted in a scary breakdown last summer on his 42nd birthday, he tells Entertainment Tonight.
I was by myself, in my bedroom and I had a complete breakdown. … Just imagine for yourself a man in underwear in his room crying. … That birthday was the beginning of, ‘Okay, I have got to make a change.’
Brady says his issues stem from low self-esteem and thinking that he’s unworthy of happiness.
Having a bad day is one thing, having a bad week is another, having a bad life … you don’t want to move in the complete darkness. You’re like, ‘I am just going to sit right here and I want to wallow in this. As much as it hurts, I am going to sit right here because this is what I deserve. This is what I deserve so I am going to sit here because I am that horrible of a person.’ It starts this cycle where you tell yourself these lies … that become truth to you. So, you stick to your own truth you’ve set up. ‘If I am this bad, why should I be of this matter?’ I feel at that point, you want to stop the pain.
Brady says Robin Williams’ hit him hard, but sadly, he understood what the late actor was going through.
Source: USA Today